Being a mother is tiring, quite often thankless, and generally hectic. I’ve discovered that the extent of these things knows no bounds.
As much as I love her, I refuse to let my gorgeous infant dictate what I can and can’t do. You guessed it, I mean writing wise.
And that’s just it. Time.
I don’t know about you, but I don’t have a Tardis sitting around gathering dust in my basement, backyard or otherwise accesible area. So that whole wibbly wobbly timey wimey thing? Yeah – not so much a thing for me.
I have none of it.
So, you might ask, how do you make time where you already have a negative amount? Why, thank you for asking, I say. You find it in those precious few hours of sleep you manage to wrangle at night. You know, around this time.
This is my solution. When baby is 100% asleep, and I mean deeeeeep sleep, I sneak through the house to my study and tackle edits (hopefully writing in the future as well) for an hour or two. For as long as my sleep deprived brain is able to fend off the inevitable.
I’m a firm believer of no excuses. I hate making excuses. Far too many people I know make excuses. When I look back on my life, I don’t want to say: I didn’t write because I didn’t have time. That’s bullshit.
This is me choosing to work for my goal. Head down, butt up, fingers flying. I will write, because it hurts when I don’t. Seriously, head explody type hurt. None of this – but I don’t have time, but I’m too tired, but things came up.
Every single night for the last month I have worked on my book. First the paper edit and now on the home stretch of my second draft. The more I work, the less I sleep (and nap with the baby for 40 mins in the afternoon), the more I realize that the only person standing in the way of what I want to achieve, is myself. Don’t forget – I work (dayjob) from home too.
No blaming the baby, work, the housework or my sad and definite lack of a Tardis. It’s all me baby. My choices. My dreams. My drive.
There’s no two ways about it. If you choose to make time, you will find it. If you don’t, did you ever really want it enough?
So, now that I’ve ranted a bit, I’ll move onto my update.
My May 2013 goals
1. Finish AI transcription – 2/3 of the way through this
2. Send AI to betas – in about 10 days
3. Visit #writemotivation blogs – kept up with this last week. Will start on this again tomorrow.
4. Maintain activity in social media – I think I’m being successful?
5. Read a book – yeah, not quite, though I bought yet another… does that count?
Complete May OurWriteMind prompt – just need to polish this and schedule the post!!!
7. Love mah baby girl – well this is really ongoing and a given, right?
Also – in other news, I may be changing my blog layout very shortly. Contemplating blogger over wordpress. Thoughts?